I’ve been thinking a lot about this recently. Not because I’m sick or anything like that, but more because there are only so many moments in a life, and I want to make more of the ones I get. Today, as I sometimes do when I want to decompress, I visited YouTube and checked the new releases on the channels I subscribe to. What I found was a TedTalk about just this topic… Before I Die…
Over the next few months and possibly years, I’ll be living in a middle ground. I have one son who is in high school and will be college bound within 2-3 years. I also have another son who is in a career transition (yes, code for unemployed…) and a mother who is in her 80s, needs more attention and will eventually be living closer to me as she transitions into assisted living. Responsibilities to loved ones and responsibility to self…
So I began to think about what is it I want to do before I die? Where do I want to travel? Who do I want to spend my time with? When do I want to settle down and set roots? and how will that look? Will I have my cottage in the woods, with the little garden and the mountain views and the outdoor solar shower? with my big dogs and little dogs and a barn cat for good measure??? OR do I want to get a cozy RV and drive, seeing friends and family, making new friends, seeing new sights, watching new sunrises and sunsets? There’s a few books to write and many discoveries to be made, like which shade of purple or green or yellow is my favorite? And the FOOD and WINE and MICROBREWS! So many flavors and textures, cool and hot and sweet and savory and sour to taste!
My mind is racing, and my body is ready for a challenge. Where will I hike or bike or ride or run or SWIM or DANCE!?! How hard am I willing to work to reach the summit? What will the view be when I arrive? Will it be worth it and will it make me only hunger for more? There are only so many questions I can ask before my mind screams stop, slow down, let’s just do today.
But that is the dilemma! I don’t know when the clock will run out or begin to run down so that the things that I want to do will become only a dream. I don’t want to wait! So, for the rest of this year, 2012, whether or not it is truly the end of the world, I will not wait to have the life of my dreams. I will do what I want to do before I die. And what will you be doing before YOU die?!?










